[edit] i know we're now at quick reaching the age where health & death becomes a major issue in our families. our parents & grandparents are getting older. and i'm so afraid that one day, when i'm in london, i'll receive a phonecall telling me someone has passed. no chance to say a last goodbye. that's my biggest fear going to london. and after what happened 2 years ago, i feel like we're living on borrowed time. [/edit]
everyday i hope to find something unconditional
just finished tian wai fei xian today (((: i like gu zhuang shows. lovely lovely. huihui was saying i super slow :p ahaha. but i quite like ariel lin. and hu ge is terribly cute in the bookworm kinda way (: hahaha. cute no?
watching the show, the line 'tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi' kept popping up all over the place. it just kinda left me in a slightly more receptive attitude towards the current situation i suppose. not that it makes me less unhappy. shrugs.
picked mingkie poo up from her law campus yesterday and went to watch a movie plus dinner. haha. i love my darling (: it was the best driving along with her and singing along to 'move along'. super super fun. haha. somehow being with ming, makes everything seem like its gonna be alright. but then listening to her talking about school, it made me a bit reluctant to leave spore. and also, part of me wished i could have continued going to school with her. laughing, eating ice cream, doing nonsense all day long. but i just need to keep reminding myself that this is the path i've long been waiting to walk on. its not going to be the easiest of paths, but i have to do it for myself, and not make choices based on where i can seek the most comfort and where is the safest. i just hope that this safe haven will always be open for me. no matter how far i am away from home..
deep down inside, i'm actually quite a traditional person. hahaha. hard to believe sometimes. but i love chinese culture, history and all the traditions & rituals that come along with being chinese. i wish i was better at hokkien/teochew. my grandmummy speaks teochew, my mummy hokkien, so i ended up with this rojak mix of hokkien & teochew. i mean i can understand when ppl speak, but when asked to speak in hokkien/teochew. i really need to think super super hard. which makes me super envious of mel and cass, who are so fluent in their dialects. at least i can say that my chinese is conversationally fluent. hahaha. thanks to hkk. grins. but ever since i decided i was going to london, i've been trying my best to learn all the traditional recipes, rituals & everything from my grandmum. i'm proud that i'm a chinese (: and i want to keep all the traditions that i grew up with, with me for e rest of my life.
: dream catch me :: newton faulkner :
everyday i hope to find something unconditional
just finished tian wai fei xian today (((: i like gu zhuang shows. lovely lovely. huihui was saying i super slow :p ahaha. but i quite like ariel lin. and hu ge is terribly cute in the bookworm kinda way (: hahaha. cute no?
watching the show, the line 'tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi' kept popping up all over the place. it just kinda left me in a slightly more receptive attitude towards the current situation i suppose. not that it makes me less unhappy. shrugs.
picked mingkie poo up from her law campus yesterday and went to watch a movie plus dinner. haha. i love my darling (: it was the best driving along with her and singing along to 'move along'. super super fun. haha. somehow being with ming, makes everything seem like its gonna be alright. but then listening to her talking about school, it made me a bit reluctant to leave spore. and also, part of me wished i could have continued going to school with her. laughing, eating ice cream, doing nonsense all day long. but i just need to keep reminding myself that this is the path i've long been waiting to walk on. its not going to be the easiest of paths, but i have to do it for myself, and not make choices based on where i can seek the most comfort and where is the safest. i just hope that this safe haven will always be open for me. no matter how far i am away from home..
deep down inside, i'm actually quite a traditional person. hahaha. hard to believe sometimes. but i love chinese culture, history and all the traditions & rituals that come along with being chinese. i wish i was better at hokkien/teochew. my grandmummy speaks teochew, my mummy hokkien, so i ended up with this rojak mix of hokkien & teochew. i mean i can understand when ppl speak, but when asked to speak in hokkien/teochew. i really need to think super super hard. which makes me super envious of mel and cass, who are so fluent in their dialects. at least i can say that my chinese is conversationally fluent. hahaha. thanks to hkk. grins. but ever since i decided i was going to london, i've been trying my best to learn all the traditional recipes, rituals & everything from my grandmum. i'm proud that i'm a chinese (: and i want to keep all the traditions that i grew up with, with me for e rest of my life.
: dream catch me :: newton faulkner :
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